*sigh*
Thursday, May 4th, 2006so. men. probably the one area in my life that’s a complete disaster. not that i don’t meet them, God, it seems like they’re crawling out everywhere, except the ones that come out to meet me are complete worms. typical, isn’t it? my friends don’t understand it. i don’t understand it. every time i think that this time it might be different, this time they might treat me well, but every time it ends in tears.
i can’t figure out why i fall for the wrong ones. no one figure it out either. i meet these guys, fall desperately in love, and become friends with them in the mistaken hope that they like me. i just go out with them and misinterpret every look, every sigh, every touch, and each time i end up feeling like shit, because yet another guy i like isn’t interested.
guys are a complete mystery, i tell you. ok, ok. i just haven’t found the right one yet. plus i really shouldn’t worry about it. i shouldn’t even be desperately searching for "the one". "Wait," that’s what they tell me to do. It’s crap… hmm, but then again, waiting isn’t that bad. on second thought, i know it isn’t. it’s just that to actually see couples while i supposedly "wait" is hard. it makes me wonder when i’ll ever be that way with someone again. still, being single is fun. the downside, thoughm is you can’t help but feel lonely from time to time. it’s a sad thing to go through but that’s the way it is. *sigh*
