supercalifragilisticexpialidocious

there are moments. there’s always a moment —- a moment when you are given a choice. and you think, "i can do this, i can give in to this, or i can resist it." that’s how love evidently works. when was your moment then?

yeah, i can definitely relate to the parts the girl sings. and yes, i’m still talking about TPS’s "nothing better." *swoon* i just love how they came up with writing both sides to an otherwise "broken" relationship. cute. hehe that’s all. i guess. haha

Will someone please call a surgeon
Who can crack my ribs
And repair this broken heart
That you’re deserting for better company?
I can’t accept that it’s over
I will block the door
Like a goalie tending the net
In the third quarter of a tied-game of rivalry

So just say how to make it right
And I swear I’ll do my best to comply

Tell me am I right to think
That there could be nothing better
Than making you my bride
And slowly growing old together?

I feel I must interject here
You’re getting carried away
Feeling sorry for youself
With these revisions and gaps in history
So let me help you remember
I’ve made charts and graphs
That should finally make it clear
I’ve prepared a lecture on why I have to leave

So please back away and let me go

I can’t, my darling, I love you so

Tell me am I right to think
That there could be nothing better
Than making you my bride
And slowly growing old together

Don’t you feed me lines
About some idealistic future
Your heart won’t heal right
If you keep tearing out the sutures

I admit that I have made mistakes
And I swear I’ll never wrong you again

You’ve got a lure I can’t deny
But you’ve had your chance so say goodbye
Say goodbye

*i don’t really like the beat or something. i like the electronic genre but something just sounds a bit off about it. it’s just not really working for me… it’s too "christmas-ish". and i’m a scrooge. i’m SO not into christmas songs. but i dig the lyrics, though. it would be so nice to have a guy sing the part that goes: "tell me am i right to think that there could be nothing betterthan making you my bride and slowly growing old together" awwwwwwwww… it is sweet, i tell you. plus i can kind of relate parts of it but mostly it just reminds me of someone. haha ok, enough said. don’t wanna blab all about it. hehe

nyahaha a big thank you to Miek87, whoever it is, in youtube for sharing the first two episodes of the l word. i am so psyched! thank you, thank you, thank you! i don’t need to wait so long to actually watch season 4. so now, i’m done with the first two episodes and i can’t wait for episode three. nyahaha

hahahahaha i was just browsing through my old files trying to delete ones that are of no use to me anymore. and to my surprise, i discovered one of the speeches i made for english 17. well, actually i made it for a friend. i was really supposed to just make an outline but i ended up being so caught up in it that, well, yeah, i came up with the whole thing instead. how fortunate of my friend, don’t you think? ok, i’m not the best writer or speech maker or whatever, but at least she didn’t need to trouble herself with making the whole thing anymore. but anyway, here it is and all i can say about what i wrote is this… a broken heart + "corny-nosity" (which i prefer to call it) + "patheticnosity" (still how i’d like to call it) = this very funny yet kind of sensible thing. hahahaha

Completely Incomplete without You

Have you ever experienced being in a crowd and yet feel so left out  so lonely? Those of you who haven’t gone through such a thing are fortunate enough, but then to make you understand how it feels is quite difficult. The very act of just imagining yourself in a room filled with people, and you imagine yourself feeling so lost and alone is not sufficient. You see, you don’t get to actually experience the very bitterness of the feeling. How did I come to feel this way? Well, now that is exactly my point in this so-called “speech”.

Love, in my opinion, is such a wonderful yet harsh experience. Some say that love is an uncontrollable feeling that makes one do tons of crazy, stupid things and that it makes you feel so high, so down  so much of everything. Three weeks ago, I felt entirely different from the way that I do right now. I was utterly happy because of a certain someone. But then things happened and they were all out of my control. Now I am left to feel bitter. It’s true when they say that when you’re down because of love, food can no longer fill your hunger; water can no longer quench your thirst; things that used to make you feel happy end up making you feel miserable. In short, nothing seems to satisfy you at all. Then there’s the awful fact that you can’t help but think of that “someone” whenever you’re idle. Plus there are moments when all you do is think of all the times you’ve spent together. And moments when you get so caught up with your emotions that you cry without noticing it and for no concrete reason. You also have to go through the horrible experience of wanting to be with that someone and of not wanting to. What’s more is that you hate that person and yet you still love him. The funny thing, though, is that no matter how hurt we get, we learn to move on and we go through the whole phase of falling in and out of love all over again. All that, and so much more, just goes to show that love is complete torture.

Although I have had a fair share of heartaches, I still want to fall and to be in love. I choose to be confused, depressed, happy, gloomy, hungry, full, thirsty, complete, satisfied, restless, and empty, among other things. I’d rather be miserable because of love than live a dull life.

And yes, I am still in love. So I address this speech to the very person that makes me feel all of the things I’ve mentioned. I am completely incomplete without you…

*d’you see what i mean? hahaha basta, you get my point, i think. just leave it at that.

i can’t WAIT to get a dvd copy of the season! buhuhuhuhuh :’( this is toture, i tell you. i have to wait about six or seven freaking months before i get to. buhuhuhuhuh :’(

*sniff* *sniff* God, i love that movie. it is SO supercalifragilisticexpialidocious. i always end up crying when i watch it. to those of you who haven’t seen it yet, you should. then again, don’t. i don’t want you guys to start loving yet another movie that i love so dearly. and evidently, only a few of us in this ever-so-busy world truly do…

*note: i have GOT to get a dvd of it ASAP. it is a must-have for me. hehehe

I’m on my knees
only memories
are left for me to hold

Don’t know how
but I’ll get by
Slowly pull myself together

There’s no escape
So keep me safe
This feels so unreal

Nothing comes easily
Fill this empty space
Nothing is like it seems
Turn my grief to grace

I feel the cold
Loneliness unfold
Like from another world

Come what may
I won’t fade away
But I know I might change

Nothing comes easily
Fill this empty space
Nothing is like it was
Turn my grief to grace

Nothing comes easily
Where do I begin?
Nothing can bring me peace
I’ve lost everything
I just want to feel your embrace

*personally, i think it is such a beautiful slow song about breaking up with someone. well, actually more of some sort of loss… a v. devastating loss, in fact. still, i love it. i can sort of relate to it up to some point. and it brings me a mix of emotions, namely hurt and relief. *sigh* yeah. it’s part of my very long break-up playlist. hahaha

shut up, brain. shut up, heart. just shut up.

hello? go to effing bed if you’re so sleepy. why in lucifer’s ass do you have to sleep only when i freaking sleep? just because you want to sleep the same time as someone else? haha  if you are so intent on doing so, why not just wait for her instead? yeah, she might sleep really late but i’m sure you’d manage. and like i effing care!!

and like, duh, t. i am jealous. isn’t it effing obvious? anyone remotely human can tell that i was and am jealous. are you really that oblivious to something spelled out so clearly in front of you?! do i really have to spoon-feed it to you? well, i have. so there! and you know who you are. besides it’s freaking clear who you are since i did use, after all, the letter "t" to refer to you.